Tuesday, August 31, 2010

When I Close My Eyes

When I close my eyes, I slip into a beautiful world.  One where its always sunset.  The birds are flying into the heavens, the breeze lightly moves my hair, and the earth is a beautiful green.  There is music in the distance, and it makes you smile. 
When I close my eyes, we're walking side by side, holding hands.  I don't have to breathe because you've already taken that away and you look at me in that special way, and I get that feeling deep inside that makes me want to squirm.
When I close my eyes, I never want to open them.  Everything is too perfect in this hidden world behind my eyelids.  I did everything right the first time, and don't wish I could go back and fix it.
When I open my eyes, I slide right back into reality.  The sunset is gone and I start to breathe again. . .

Monday, August 30, 2010

Can you find me?

I am a secret. 
An story not yet told.
A whisper.
I hide in open spaces.
Where you cannot see me.
I scream in the silence.
When you cannot hear me.
You search in the dark, behind every nook and cranny.
You find nothing because you look with your eyes.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

First Day of Classes

So today was my first day of classes here at SUNY Oneonta.  I think I have already told you this, but if not, I have the best schedule EVER.  My earliest class is noon and my latest class ends at 5:15!!! And on fridays, I'm done at 1:50.  Anywho, today I started out my day with Math for the Liberal Arts.  I have a feeling that is going to be the easiest class I have ever taken and will ever take.  For homework, I got to draw shapes.  The funny thing is my shapes sucked but luckily he doesn't collect homework.  The professor is. . .hard to hear and sweaty.  lol. My second class was Western Civilations I at 1 o'clock.  That class is in a small lecture hall.  The professor seems a little bit like a prick.  That class, I believe, will be the hardest class of all the classes I'm taking this semester.  I'm not a strong history student as is. . .so. . .but then I had my intro to psych class.  My professor was almost 15 minutes late lol.  But she seems really cool and I think I'm really going to enjoy the class.  She seems like she really enjoys her job and I think that will be my favorite class as a result.  So yeah, that was my day :)

The Squirrel

So I was sitting outside today drinking a smoothie and waiting for my first class to start.  I was sitting on a stone bench in a very scenic area surrounded by trees and such.  As I was sitting there a pair of squirrels ran past me.  One kept going while the other stopped.  I'm almost positive that this particular squirrel was a female.  She stopped and stared at me for a while. . .crouched. . .looking as if she wanted to attack me.  Then she partially climbed a nearby tree which was even closer to where I was sitting.  While she was holding on to the side of the tree. . .she peed on it while staring at me. . .have you ever seen a squirrel pee before? I haven't.  I think she must have had babies in the tree or something because she continued to stare at me and though she moved throughout the tree she always kept me in sight and she always had this look on her face that was as if she was daring me to come closer.  I found this exchange between myself and the squirrel humorous so I thought I would share about it with you.  Then as I sat there, I heard something that sounded like a young girl whispering. . .it was actually a crow. . .crowing? lol yeah. . .I know I'm trippin` but I thought I would share this interesting experience with you today on my first day of college classes :P

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Take A Leap

Jump in a puddle with me. 
Take my hand.
Close your eyes.
And just leap!!
It's not that deep.
Whats the worst that could happen?

Laugh with me as we soak up the sun.
Take a deep breath.
Wear your shades.
Let's chill.

Hide in a pile of leaves with me.
It's not cold yet.
I love the colors.
Want to jump out and scare someone?

Make a snow angel with me?
Let's reminisce as we lay on top of millions of flakes.
Don't start to cry, your tears might freeze.
Lets go snuggle inside and get warm.

Live your life with me. 
Experience things with me.
Take my hand.
Take a leap.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Moved to Oneonta

So yesterday, as I said in my last post, I moved to SUNY Oneonta.  I got here at 8 o'clock and was the first person here so I got my own bed (not in a bunk) I don't know if I told you this before or not, but I got tripled, but not a forced triple so the room is set up for three people and we have 3 of everything.  My parents helped me get all unpacked and then we went to walmart to pick up a few things that I forgot and then we went to lunch.  I met up with all the people I met at orientation, its really nice to see them again.  We did a lot of walking, but sadly I still have no idea where I'm going and I actually got lost last night on my way to Mills Hall. . .I think its a straight line actually. . .but I got lost :P  Maddie and I took the bus downtown last night to figure out what its all about, we found a few parties. . .but not quite what we were looking for.  We made it back around 12:30 and I took a shower and went to bed.  I've met a few interesting people so far since I've been there and I'm so excited to meet more and enjoy the new experiences.  I think I'm going to go pick up my books today and perhaps try to find a job.  Wish me luck <3


okay so I'm a little sad because I couldn't get my computer to connect to the internet yesterday here at Oneonta, but I finally got it working this morning.  I'm sad because yesterday was a very special day.  Yesterday was not only the day that I moved to Oneonta, but it was also the 1 year anniversary of my blog!!  So I was planning on posting this image:
But now its a little belated, but I still think its cool that I've had my blog for a year now.  So 1 year, 2449 views (in the last few months because I added that app late. . .I think I've had it since like May)  and 222 posts :) I think its been a pretty good year, a lot of interesting turns my life has taken since the start of my blog lol and I'm sure the next year will be the same and you will be right here with me to experience it. 

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Going to College Tomorrow. . .Memories

So tomorrow morning I leave for college and it wasn't until today that it REALLY hit me.  I was driving in the car with two of my best friends, Kelsey and Gabby, when I realized that was going to be the last time we are all together to do that for a while. . .some of my friends from high school I may never see again, others I hope never to see again lol.  I thought about all the fun times we've had.  Like last night, will remain in my memory forever.  Kelsey and I drove to Gabby's work to surprise her.  I plan was to show up and hide in the back seat of her car and scare her when she gets in, well it was very light because she was parked by the building and she had nothing in her car for us to hide under so instead I moved her car (she had her doors unlocked and her keys in the ignition) to the other side of the parking lot where it was dark and she couldn't see it, then kelsey and I got back in my car to wait.  It took Gabby a little while to finally realize that her car was missing, but when she did she started to freak out.  Kelsey and I were laughing hysterically and Gabby heard us but she couldn't figure out who we were, then she finally said "Jocelyn?" and came over to the car.  She was still kinda freaking out and asking where we put her car.  It was too funny.  It was the best time I've had in a long time and we made Gabby's night.  I loved it, but at the same time I'm sad because I won't be able to do these types of things with them for a while.  Sure, I'm going to make new memories with new friends but its still sad because although the book isn't ending, one more chapter is, and a whole new one is starting tomorrow morning.  Am I scared?  yeah.  Am I anxious? yeah.  Am I excited?  yeah.  Am I sad?  yeah. . .i'm full of emotions right now.  Its weird to think that I am no longer in high school. . .that I'm MOVING OUT of my house. . .that I'm going to college. . .I graduated from a high school with 82 students in my graduating class.  I knew everyone.  Now I'm going to a school with thousands of students, and as of right now. . .I know a hand full.  I've never been good a goodbyes, or letting go of things, but right now I have to say goodbye to everyone and everything that has made up my life for the last 18 years and let go of it to take on a whole new. . .everything.  I drove by my high school today. . .so many memories.  I drove by that place where ashley, laura, and I went when we ditched school to get squished.  I drove by wintergreen park.  Then on my way home. . .I got pulled over because my dad's tail light is out (didn't get a ticket though) lol.  The point is that there are a lot of memories here and I just feel sad because I'm leaving the people that I've made them with.  Imma miss you guys.  Love you.  Suny Oneonta Class of 2014!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

My Georgia Stories

So there was so much that I left out in my post with all the pictures from Georgia so imma tell you know :)
First of all, my flight down to Georgia was awful. . .my first flight from Albany to Atlanta was soo bumpy, it scared the shit out of me.  Not to mention plane rides now make me super nauseous!  Once I got to Atlanta I had 20 minutes to get from gate A11 to D30something.  Have you ever been to the Atlanta airport?  Yeah. . .not only is it like the biggest airport in the US, its also packed beyond all good reason.  But I did in fact make it there by running. . .made it in 10 minutes!! I'm amazing.  But my flight from Atlanta to Columbus Georgia. . .omg.  I sat next to this super old lady, and she felt the need to complain about everything!! The flight was only 40 minutes but I wanted to slap her.  She bitched about the small plane, about my carry on, about the guy behind her moving, about not being able to hear the pilot when he over the intercom. . .ugh.  Then I finally made it Columbus where I had my grandma, papa, aunt, and cousins waiting. . .my dad (the biological one) drove up when we got in the parking lot.  I'm 18 years old and I've been flying to Georgia by myself since I was 5. . .my dad has NEVER come to the airport.  Not only that, but he gave me a present and went to dinner with us. . .It started out really well, we went shopping a lot and my aunt Barbara paid for me to get my hair straightened without chemicals, its some brazillian thing.  That was awesome.  It took like 3 hours, but I got my hair done by a tranny named Candice, I love her lol.  Then we went to Florida.  When we got there, as I said before, it was storming so we stayed in the hotel room for a while.  Then we got dinner and went to the pool.  I don't know if you know this, but people from the south are very racist, not only against african americans but towards EVERYONE!!! I was really getting sick of hearing it to be honest. . .We weren't able to go in the ocean because there was a crap ton of seaweed up on and near the shore. . .i walked along the beach and finally found a clearish spot. . .but when I got in I saw a jellyfish so I got out.  I also saw a dolphin, that was pretty cool.  I spent a lot of time with family and. . .it had its ups and downs.  On my first flight home however, I sat next to a man who began snoring seconds after the tires lifted off the ground and he didn't stop until we landed.  Then I had 2 hours to wait at the Atlanta airport until I had to get on my second plane.  On my second flight, I sat next to an asian girl that I didn't speak to at all. . .I think she was from Thailand though, but when I got off the plane there was a guy holding a sign saying "Oneonta International Students" so I think that girl is a foreign exchanged student that is going to be studying at my college. . .thats pretty cool.  So there ya go, a few more stories that I neglected to tell in my previous post.

College Calendar

Fall 2010

August 22-24 Sunday-Tuesday New student arrival & orientation

August 25 Wednesday Classes begin

September 28 Tuesday College closes after last evening class

October 4 Monday Classes resume

October 22-24 Friday-Sunday Homecoming & Family Weekend

November 19 Friday College closes after last class

November 29 Monday Classes resume

December 13-17 Monday-Friday Finals

Spring 2011

January 16-18 Sunday-Tuesday New student arrival & orientation

January 19 Wednesday Classes begin

February 18 Friday College closes after last class

February 28 Monday Classes resume

April 15 Friday College closes after last class

April 26 Tuesday Classes resume

May 11 Wednesday Follow Monday class schedule

May 12-18 Thursday-Wednesday Finals

May 21 Saturday Commencement

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Jessica's Obituary

Jessica Ashley Canfield

Passed away Tuesday, November 6, 2007 after an automobile accident. Born in Niskayuna, January 4, 1991, she was the daughter of Lori Taylor Martin and James Canfield, Jr. Jessie attended Amsterdam High School until ninth grade, where she was active in the ROTC and the high school band. She later attended Ballston Spa High School where she was a junior varsity cheerleader. Jessie was active with the United Methodist Church in Ballston Spa. She sang in the choir and cared for the children in the nursery. Jessie assisted with many dinners and events held at the church. She also donated her time helping the Eagle Matt Lee and Union Fire Co with their Thanksgiving dinners for the needy. Jessie worked at Price Chopper in Malta.

She was predeceased by her great grandparents Kenneth and Alice Taylor and Matilda Belle Johnson. She is survived by her mother Lori Taylor Martin and Jonathan Cook; her father James Canfield, Jr and Laura Barker; 2 sisters Corey Lee Martin and Tracy Canfield; brother Jacob Martin; grandparents Carolyn and William Taylor, James Canfield Sr, and Martha Rowley. She is also survived by many aunts, uncles, cousins and one niece.

Funeral services will be held 3pm Monday, November 12, at the United Methodist Church, 101 Milton Avenue, Ballston Spa. Burial will follow in Rock City Falls Cemetery. Calling hours will precede the service from 1-3pm Monday at the church. Memorial contributions may be made to the Albany Medical Center Pediatric Unit, 43 New Scotland Avenue, Albany, NY 12208.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Addison Nicole Green

This is Addison.  She is my second cousin and she is 4.  I don't know what happened. . .but she and I connected really well.  I fell in love with this little girl and she spent quite a bit of time with me.  I wanted to steal her away. 
We did all sorts of things together.  Painting her nails was one of them. . .getting a 4 year old to sit still long enough for her nails to dry is IMPOSSIBLE! lol I also taught her how to play Go Fish, and Old maid.  She was really good at all of the games, she's really smart. . .so good that she was already cheating!!! lol
So she is a lot like me in that she loves having her picture taken.
She's a diva, and she knows it!! She will tell you too lol
No, she doesn't take after me at all :P I love this little girl with all my heart and I really can't wait to see her again. 

Trip to Georgia/Alabama/Florida

Well I was in Georgia, Alabama, and Florida for the last two and a half weeks and I am finally back!!  It was nothing short of interesting and I took quite a few pix for you. . .though not as many as I would have liked.  So here it goes, enjoy:

These were taken at my grandmothers house in Cataula, Georgia. 
this is the front room. . .I think I'm the only person that actually sat on that couch like. . .ever. 
another couch you just don't sit on. . .
this is all in the front room right as you walk in the house.
this is her house.  in the south, most houses are brick and one story. 
I can't say my grandmother likes plants because like isn't a strong enough word. . .obsessed maybe?  this is only a portion of one of her 100's of gardens all over her yard. 
This is their RV.  My papa is planning on retiring in february and when he does they hope to do a lot of traveling all over the US. 
This is some tree. . .idk how to spell the name but it sounds like crepe myrtle. . .idk lol
I pointed out this plant to my grandmother because I liked it and she told me that its illegal to have in Florida. . .I think it might be some form of salvia or something, I guess you can get high off of it lol :P
This is my grandmother's hide away. . .this is a new edition since the last time I was there.  We sat out there every morning and drank coffee.
When I was little my grandmother wanted me to learn how to drive so she had me drive this 4-wheeler truck like thing (I guess its called a mule) and zigzag through these trees. . .it was boring lol.
These are my papa's work boots.  My grandmother said that she liked this picture best because it symbolizes all the work he's done to earn his living. 

We all know how vain I am so here are a bunch of pictures I took of myself tee hee

We went to Panama City Beach, Florida.  When we first got there it was storming pretty bad.  The trip was fun, but it was also disappointing because you couldn't really go in the beach.  There was really thick gross seaweed close to the shore and all over the beach.  I finally found a clearish spot and got in the ocean only to find a jelly fish. . .thats when I decided I'd stick to the pool.  I also saw a dolphin out there which was pretty cool, but I was only actually in the ocean for like 10 minutes. . .the pool was fun though. 
I thought the sky looked epic in this picture!!!!!
This was an upside down house. . .tourist attraction thing.  we went shopping here. 
There was a rainbow, its hard to see in this pic but its up there, see it?

I have a lot of family down there, I didn't get pictures of everyone, but here are some of them.
My cousins, Keaton and Payton.
Thats my grandmother, keaton, payton, and my aunt. 
Thats my papa wearing my grandmother's glasses to read the paper.  tee hee
Keaton <3
Payton and I had the same kind of icecream, I think it was called superman or something.
My grandma Judy and Papa.
This was a japanese restaurant we ate at, I liked the decor. 
Thats Dana and Addison, hey're also my cousins.   Addison and I connected and I love that little girl more than anything on the planet, I don't have a lot of pix of her on here because she is getting a post of her own coming up :)
Dana's birthday was the 14th so he was shopping for presents.  He LOVES the movie Cars and Lightning Mcqueen.  It was cute.  He's 3.
This is my other little cousin Gavin, he's 18 months.  He loves me too, he was showing off the last time I was there by spinning in circles. . .he fell over a lot lol.