Wednesday, August 26, 2009

:( (:

Well, the lady from probation for the adoption never showed up.  My entire family was not very happy.  My mother took the day off of work to clean the house and be all ready for her and we've all been waiting for this for quite some time.  She was the one that made this appointment, and this is her job.  I'm not sure what my parents are going to do about it, but I'm not happy.  This was one more step into making the adoption complete and it didn't happen.  I had been waiting for her all day, she was supposed to come at 7PM and 7 came and went.  My parents sat there waiting while I made the video posted below. . .they waited and waited.  I'm just not very happy about it.  This was really important *sigh*

Well I showed Chris the video I made yesterday and he LOVED it.  I was actually some what upset with him when I made it because I simply asked him to send me a message before he left to do some shopping.  He doesn't have a cell phone right now so the only way we can communicate is online.  I don't ask much of him, just to send me a few messages.  I'm having a hard time adjusting to him not being here, and its going to take me a while.  Right now, I'm really struggling and all I ask is that he message me when I ask him to.  But I made the video because I missed him and when he got back into the room I asked him if he had 5 minutes to see the surprise I had for him.  He said that I had to wait 5 minutes because his RA was doing a room check.  Well of course that 5 minutes turned into 25.  I had worked on the video for 2 hours and all I wanted to do is show him.  I am also not a very patient person so this only frustrated me more, but I didn't let him see that.  I know its not his fault.  He is very busy right now trying to get everything worked out for college and get everything he needs and its not his fault his cell phone broke, but sometimes he just doesn't make it any easier.  Like when I asked him what time his first class was today and he said 8 this morning, so I said "ok, just please please message me before you leave." and he said ok.  Well I woke up around 8:30 and of course. . .no messages.  So I sent him a message and a few minutes later he sent one back.  He messed up, his classes didn't start until 9 so he hadn't left yet.  So fine, I didn't have a reason to be upset there, and I wasn't after he explained it to me, but honestly I don't think he was going to remember to message me anyways.  Its just really frustrating right now.  I'm trying to do all I can to show him how much I love him with my blogs and my videos, and I know they make him happy but I don't get the responses I'm looking for because well. . .they're all on AIM. 

On the upside, Chris comes home today!!! He promised to come home this wednesday because I've been missing him so much.  His classes end early today and don't start until late tomorrow.  We also want to try to see our other friend that leaves tomorrow for college.  I'm glad I get to see him, I want nothing more than to be in his arms and kiss him as much as possible.  Hopefully now I will get the responses I've been looking for to my blogs and videos.  I just want him to say thank you, tell me he loves me, and hold me tightly in his arms.  Thats all I want.  I've missed being in his arms very much, especially at night.  I know I've already said this but I really do miss him tucking me into bed at night.  So I'm excited that he will get to do that tonight and I'm excited that I get to see him.