Sunday, February 21, 2010

Creature of the Night

I will compare you to a creature of the night.
Yes. . .that is how I will do it. 
Dark. . .mysterious. . .a secret.
shhhh don't tell.
Don't say a word.
I will obey the creature of the night.
Under his spell. . .his power. . .his control.
It isn't blood lust, no, its lust, desire, need.
Its like a drug, isn't it? 
Take me creature of the night. 
You are like the night sky.
Big. . .over powering, but beautiful.
Dispite the darkness, and impurities, you are beautiful.
Lit up by the stars and the moon.
Is it possible to be so bright and wonderful, and so dark?
You are.
I'm like a little girl gazing up at you with desire in my eyes.
Take me creature of the night.
I'm already under your power.
Innocence lost.
Identity doubled.
Heart torn.
I surrender.
Give my self, my blood, my body. 
Take whats left and what already belongs to someone else.
Take me.

My Visit With Tim

Well I'm back home from my trip to Missouri.  I only got to see my fiance for about 7.5 hours but I loved every second.  I got to touch him and kiss him and that is what mattered the most.  He looked so sexi in his uniform. . .Class A's. . .is that what they are called?? Well anyways he looked amazing.  Kissing him. . .omg it took my breath away.  Well his mom encouraged us to spend some "special alone time" in the bathroom *wink wink* which was right off of the hotel room (awkward) but we did. . .it was. . .fun haha.  He is just so sexi and I am so in love with him.  I get to talk to him just about every day now which makes me very happy, its the next best thing to seeing him.  The thing about our relationship. . .when i see him for the first time after a long wait its like falling in love at first sight every time.  When I have to go months at a time without seeing him, the moment that I do. . .I can't even put it into words what I feel.  My heart skips a beat and I'm instantly reminded of how much he means to me, and I swear I fall even more in love with him every time.  The bad thing. . .the good byes.  After falling even more in love with him and barely being able to breath every second I spend with him. . .my heart breaks.  I have to say goodbye and know that I won't see him again for a long time.  Do you know what that feels like?? Again. . .lack of words.  My heart breaks.  I can't choke back the tears, they just pour out.  But I swear it makes every moment I have with him that much better, and it makes the next meeting that much more special.  Our love is special because its always new.  Our time together is special because its so rare.  That is why I want to marry him, because Tim and I share something so special and so emotional. . .and I hate that I can't be with him every day, but absense makes the heart grow stronger and without the pain, I couldn't feel compassion. . .our relationship proves this. 

Timothy Evan Manchester Jr.  I love you more than anything.  You and me forever ♥