Friday, November 27, 2009

I Had A Dream.

I dreamed last night that I was running.  I was being chased, or at least something was following me.  I would look back from time to time, but I couldn't see what it was.  I was scared.  I was crying.  Everything around me was attacking me.  The world was against me.  The world wanted me for dead.  I didn't know where to go, but I kept running.  There was a path in the forest, I followed it.  There was nothing else to follow.  Nothing seemed safe. 
There was a man in the forest right in front of my path.  He just stood there looking at me.  He had this strange look in his eyes.  I thought it was rage, hatred, pain.  I was scared, I thought this was it, but I kept running.  My body wouldn't let me stop.
I ran right into the mans arms.  I continued to cry, and shake with fear, and the man still held me.  It was then that I realized it was you.  You were the man I ran to.  You held me tight and for the first time I felt safe.  Your arms were strong and warm, and you just held me as I cried.  You protected me from the demons, and all my fears.  I held on to you as tight as I could, I feared that if I let go, you would disappear. 
After a while I stopped crying and I stopped shaking.  I looked up at you, and you still had that look in your eyes.  I realized that it wasn't rage, hate, or pain.  It was the look of love, and passion, and lust, and desire. 
I will never forget that look.
I will never forget your warmth.
I will never forget your strength.
I will never forget you, because you are my safety, my protection, and my love. 

Did you know?. . .

Did you know that you inspire me?  
Your words are like a drug that send me whirling though a psychadelic state. 
The sound of your voice harmonizes with the song of my soul. 
Your lips taste like heaven, but burn through me like hell.
Your eyes catch and hold me tight, and I will never leave.

Did you know that I love it when you listen to me speak?  When all I hear is your breathing and all I see is your smile.
I love it when you're near me.  When all I feel is your warmth, and all I smell. . .is you.

Did you know that I'm not sure I could love you more than I do because my heart might just explode?   Or the world might end?
But if the world does end, my love, I will still love you.  I know I will live forever in your heart, and you will live forever in mine. 

Did you know that I started writing because of you?  I used to write before, but stopped when that part of me died.  You know what I'm talking about.  I could no longer get the words out.  I could no longer show myself that way.  Until you.  You inspired me.  You healed the part of me I needed to write again.  I can write about love again, but more, I can feel love again.

Did you know that I am yours?  I gave you my heart, my soul, my body.  That is my gift to you, the only one I can give that is worthy.  You gave me more than I deserve and I cannot meet that because you deserve the world.  So I give you my love. 

Did you know?