Friday, December 31, 2010

New Years Resolutions

So believe it or not, it is nearly 2011. . .Where did 2010 go?  I still remember New Years last year. . .I had to say goodbye to my Fiance as he left, once again, for bootcamp.  My how things have changed.  I'm almost positive I made a New Years Resolution last year. . .but to be honest with you. . .I don't remember what it was and I probably didn't fulfill it :P  So this year, I've decided NOT to make a New Years Resolution that I won't remember at the beginning of 2012.  Instead, I'm just going to close my eyes, cross my fingers, and hope that 2011 is as memorable and interesting as 2010.  :)

Thursday, December 30, 2010

My Heart Part III

My heart is fragile. . .like the wings of a butterfly.
My heart breaks. . .it shatters like glass.
The pieces scatter with each new break.
Pieces are missing.
But its okay. . .
My heart has been glued back together many times.
Missing pieces have been filled by the hearts of others.
My heart may be broken.
But it's beautiful like stained glass.
Handle with care.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Little Fockers

Hilarious. . .enough said :)

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas

So I know not everyone celebrates Christmas. . .I'm not sure if all of my readers do or not.  I celebrate Christmas even though I am not a christian so I am wishing all of you that do in fact celebrate Christmas, a Merry one :P  And for those of you that don't, Happy Holidays. 

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Classes-Spring Semester

So I scheduled my classes at FMCC the other day and this is what i'm taking:

Intro to Sociology on Tuesdays on Thursdays at 9:30 to 10:55 with Guiffre
Bar and Beverage Management on Mondays Wednesdays and Fridays at 1:00 to 1:55 with Henderson
English on Tuesdays and Thursdays at 2:00 to 3:25 with Vennette
General Psychology on Mondays Wednesdays and Fridays at 2:00-2:55 with Friedman
Anatomy and Physiology on Wednesdays from 6:00-8:55 and my lab is Thursdays from 6:00-8:55 with Barr

For You :) Owl City - Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you

And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight
When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

Sunday, December 12, 2010

New Gadget

I've added a new gadget that can be found on the left hand side if you scroll down a bit.  Its a Suicide Chatroom.  No, it is not a suicide prevention chat room.  I came across the gadget, and I liked it so I decided to put it in my blog.  Users can use any type of screen name or choose to be anonymous.  The people in the chatroom are not only people in my blog, the chatroom comes up in a few other places as well.  I liked it, use it if you would like. 

Friday, December 10, 2010



He said

He said, he said Make a wish upon my necklace.
He said, he said I hope all of your dreams come true.
He said, he said you deserve nothing but the best.
But what if what I wished for. . .was you?

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Let Go

What if I've given up?  What if I don't really care anymore. What if I'm not really there anymore?  Maybe I'm just an empty shell. . .maybe I've been sucked dry of life.  Maybe there is nothing for me over the rainbow and I'm just wasting space by waiting and hoping that its all going to get better. Every question could be answered at the cost of just one breath.  I'm holding on by a thread. . .maybe I should let go and just see what happens.  Just close my eyes and let go. . .

The Waters

The waters are dark. 
You can't see into it. 
Its cold. 
But I wish to swim. 
I stick my toe in,
its like a shock.
How shall I descend?
Tip toe in? Inch by inch?
Do I slip into the water gracefully?
Or Do I jump right in?
Waters hold me. . .embrace me. 
I wish to swim. 
I wish to plunge and explore your depths.
Let me enter you, let me swim.


So lately I've heard that there is a rumor going around about me that I got kicked out of college for marijuana and that is why I'm back home.  I just want to let all of you know that that is no wheres near true.  First of all I was not kicked out of school, I took a personal leave of absense.  Second of all I was never caught with drugs or got in any trouble while I was in school.  Third of all I was going to a SUNY School called STONEONTA. . .I don't think anyone has gotten kicked out of a state school for marijuna unless they're growing it in the school or large scale distribution.  But I was not.  I actually left school because I didn't like all the immature high school kids with new found freedom partying all the time and being stupid about it.  Academically I had straight A's.  So don't believe that shit because its not true by any means. 


So a couple weeks ago I went to the eye doctor.  I hadn't been there in 3 years and I had had the wrong perscription since day one :P The first thing they did was test the pressure in my eyes.  The woman did it three times because she thougtht she was getting the wrong reading, when I asked her what was wrong she said it was high.  I asked her if that was glaucoma, she said high pressure could be caused by a lot of things, but yes.  I told her that my mother has glaucoma, and she immediately looked worried and told me that isn't good and to definately tell the doctor that.  I went through the eye exam and figured out my eyes had improved quite a bit since my last visit 3 years ago.  He said it could be because my brain grew and such. . .maybe it was just because we got the wrong numbers last time, but I have a new perscription coming.  I asked him about the pressure thing and reminded him that my mother has glaucoma and he told me that next year, if my pressure is still high they will do more tests.  :-/ I'm not really stressing about it because I have a year before I know and I know stressing isn't going to make anything better, but the doctor said that its very rare for someone my age to have glaucoma and I wonder if I'm going to go blind earlier or have it worse because I'm so young. . .THANKS MOM For those of you that don't know, glaucoma is an eye disease that leads to loss of perripheral vision and then blindness.  On the upside-in a few states you can get medicinal marijuana.  :P

Tuesday, November 30, 2010


So one night, Ashley, Gabby, and I decided it would be a good idea to steal a traffic cone from the side of the road in Fort Plain. . .we actually took 2.  This one ended up in my room and became known as "The Party Cone."  Our next great idea was to decorate The Party Cone :P

You can't really see it, but this glow in the dark star actually says "Party Cone" on it :P

We had a few ping pong balls so we decided to draw faces on them and glue them onto the cone as well, this one was Gabby's fine artwork.

The star at the top was the last thing we added :) 

Sunday, November 14, 2010

For Me. . .:) (Tonight - FM Static)

A video sent to me from someone very special.  I cry every time I watch it.  <3

For Your Part III (Come What May - Moulin Rouge)

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh come what may, come what may
I will love you

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place...

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

For You Part II (Paparazzi - Lady Gaga)

Our other song :P <3

Single. . .again :P What else is new?? :)

Prince Charming

Once upon a time, in a far away land lived a sad little Princess who wished upon a star.  As her luck would have it, her wish was granted, but the "answer" was defective.  Yes, the princess of course wished for Prince Charming, but instead got Prince Not So Charming.  Yes, he may have appeared to slay dragons in the beginning, but in the end all he was good for was passing gas.  The sad little Princess left the Prince as soon as she saw who the Prince really was and locked herself back up in her tower to wait for the next "Prince Charming."


. . .and so the soap opera ends with the Butterflies falling to dust.  In the end, there is not goodbye. . .just an angry stare and a sigh of relief.  Just like the Butterflies, you fall to dust. 

Saturday, November 13, 2010