Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Dedicated: To the Best Mom Ever

About 2 weeks ago my Grandma Martha passed away.  She has been suffering for years with COPD and it finally got the best of her.  My grandma lived upstairs from us for half of my life and helped raise me, she and I were very close and I have a lot of wonderful memories with her.  It was hard to lose her, but at the same time, I am glad she is no longer suffering.  She really wasn't living anymore because of the disease.  She could barely eat without being out of breath.  I know she was very depressed and she was ready to go, even if we weren't.  I love you grandma, rest in peace.  I know if there is a heaven, she is there :)  My grandma that passed, is my Mom's mom and my mom has been having a hard time with this. . .who wouldn't?  I know for the last few years mom has been making an extra effort to be there and to make memories and just spend time with grandma. . .she knew their time together was getting shorter.  I've always believed this, and I still do now more than ever. . .My mom HAS to be Super Woman lol.  I don't know how she did it, but my mom has ALWAYS been on top of everything.  She has always taken care of everything and everyone, put herself second, and never expected anything in return.  She has worked multiple jobs to provide for us, always made sure we were safe, clothed, bathed, and polite. My mom and I may not always see eye to eye, but she has always been there for me and put me and my siblings first before anything else.  I've always known that, but after grandma passed away and my dad and I went up to the nursing home to see mom and say our goodbyes to grandma, my mom was hurting.  She had just lost her mom.  I don't know what I would do if I was in the same position.  But my mom was sitting there, crying, holding grandmas hand saying her goodbyes. . .until she saw me crying.  Mom then let go of grandmas hand to come console me.  Dammit, she deserves a metal.  My mom isn't perfect, but I couldn't have asked for a better Mom. . .in my eyes, she's the best there is.  I love you mom, and I can't thank you enough for just being you. 

Hurricane Irene

Well obviously we survived lol, however I am very sorry for those that didn't and for those that weren't as lucky as we were.  My boyfriend and I stayed home at our apartment during the storm and due to our location. . .we really didn't think it was that bad until after the fact.  We were feet away from losing power, and being flooded. . .but we didn't.  We got very lucky.  There were trees down every where, homes, businesses, etc were flooded, and millions lost power.  The most we lost was phone, internet, and cable for a few hours the following morning.  Everything was closed, as well as all the main roads, and so many that were flooded.  We really got hit very bad. . .we were just in a good spot. 


So I know I promised pictures of Louisiana, and I have them! However, I was stupid when I was saving the album to my computer and such. . .and I kind of deleted the album from my computer.  I do still have all the pictures uploaded onto facebook, but I'm not going to lie. . .there are quite a few pictures there and I really really really don't want to copy and paste them all onto here, so if you are very upset about this and really really want me to post them I will. . .otherwise, please refer to my facebook where I have an album dedicated to my trip to New Orleans.  Hopefully, this is the link lol

Going Backwards, but Pics of Boston!!!!

okay, I know what you're thinking. . ."not too many pictures of Boston. . ." well you're half right. . .I believe I have more pictures on my phone of boston, but my phone has been shut off temporarily, but once it is turned back on I will post those pictures as well.  Also, I let my sister have my camera while we were at the zoo and I don't know what setting she had it on or what she did but the pictures didn't come out good at all so I didn't post them.  

Me, ME, me, and CJ ♥ lol

CJ normally doesn't look so grungy but he hadn't showered or shaved yet, and he needs a haircut lol

Sunday, August 28, 2011

New Apartment Part II

Mood: Irritable

Well CJ and I finally got home phone, internet, and cable at the apartment.  It took us forever because verizon is on strike, and at&t doesn't know which way is up, so we finally got time warner cable :P I do love our apartment thus far, though there are constant sirens and our landlady scares the piss out of me lol.  We now have all of our furniture, appliances, dishes, pots and pans, etc.  It was great because we got it all for free and saved thousands of dollars. . .but it is also very sad because a lot of the stuff came from my grandmother who just passed away :( RIP Grandma Martha :'(  She has been suffering for a long time with COPD and I'm glad that she is no longer suffering but at the same time I am still very distraught because she and I were very close and she helped raise me.  I will miss her very much, but as I said before I am very glad that she is no longer suffering and I am positive if there is a heaven she is there :) she was a very christian woman.  But we are all settled in and things are going well, pictures coming soon (lots because I still haven't posted the pictures of New Orleans or Boston yet :P)

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

New Apartment

Mood: Content
Weather: Fall is freakin coming :( getting cooler. . .cloudy :'( SUMMER COME BACK!

So my boyfriend and I kind of moved on an impulse. . .yes, bad decision.  Not to mention it was when our finances weren't at their greatest. . .So his momma loanded us the money to get the apartment (THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!) and she gave CJ a lot of things for the apartment and bought us a bunch of groceries, all of which we wouldn't have been able to otherwise afford.  My parents gave me some stuff as well which I am very very greatful for.  I had thought about how much we were going to need when we got our own place. . .but I hadn't really thought of everything. . .There are sooo many things we need :P We had to go to walmart the first night in our apartment so we could make, and eat dinner :P I wish we had a cheap bottle of wine that we could drink out of coffee cups to really top off the night on our first night :P but I think that will still happen in the near future.  I think walmart is going to be my bestfriend seeing as it is now 2 miles away as opposed to 30 minutes :P not to mention all the great prices that I now pay attention to :P (As a side note, I would just like to say, GROWING UP SUCKS!! :P ) but no, I really do love my apartment and I think its going to work out great, we just need a month or two and we will be on our feet and set, I'm going to do what I can to get a job by next weekend (I put my 2 week notice in at Mercato's) and CJ wants to get a second part time job on top of his full-time, well paying job.  I'm optimistic.  :) But anywho, my apartment is a large 1 bedroom 1 bathroom apartment.  Its on the 1st floor next door to a private college, in a very nice part of town.  It has a small back yard, coin operated laundry in the building, stove (electric) and refrigerator.  Its really cute, and the kitchen has a bar :) There are huge closets and cabinets every where and everything is well lit.  The apartment also has a lot of windows.  Its really great :) And I get to have Jack without extra pay :) Its $700/month with heat and hot water included.  :) Love it!!!! Pictures soon :)

Monday, August 8, 2011

Me Me Me, and oh yeah, did I mention ME???

So I thought I'd spice it up with some color for a change :P Well any who, I would just like to say that I no longer have my nose and lip pierced.  I took them out a while ago and I'm not going to put them back.  I feel like I'm growing out of that phase and I didn't particularly love them.  They got in the way and they were more of a hassle than anything, I only kept them for as long as I did because I spent so much money on them :P Yeah, I suppose I'm weird like that.  So now I only have my tongue pierced and 7 piercings in my ears (3 in each lobe and 1 in my cartilage on the right side).  Its only 2 more years before I'm done with college and entering the workforce (hopefully!!) as a RN. . .I now have my own apartment with my boyfriend. . .Time to grow up and that's honestly what I want.  I'm evolving into the adult I've always hoped to be.  So cross your fingers, your toes, and pray to whatever you pray to that things work out for me because at this point I'll take all the help I can get :P <3




I moved yesterday. . .to an hour away from where I've lived for the last 10 years.  I've been looking forward to moving and getting out of Canajoharie for quite a while, and all of a sudden (and I mean, all of a sudden :P ) my new boyfriend and I move an hour away to Schenectady.  I am very excited and happy to be living with CJ, but the other day. . .but when I was up in the attic looking for my mom's extra set of pots an pans. . .It hit me.  I'm moving out.  I'm no longer living at home. . .I'm growing up.  When did that happen?  When did I grow up?  I guess the thought crossed my mind: Am I ready?  I found some things in the attic. . .my knick knacks that I had in my room in Amsterdam that I hadn't seen since I moved to Canajoharie (porcelain bears and dolls), my teddy bears, things from my childhood, etc.  Idk. . .it just kinda hit me.  I didn't cry.  I didn't have a panic attack.  I just kinda stood there. . .thinking. . .feeling.  I got over it quickly and haven't really felt that way since.  But it does surprise me that I'm. . .all grown up :) Well :p sorta :p.  I loved moving, I was very excited about it and I can't wait to really start decorating and having things :)  I hope to find a new job by next weekend so I can start helping to pay for things because we really do need so much. . .but its fun.  Every minute is an adventure :)

New Beginnings :)

Mood: Happy :) 
Weather: Bipolar :P 
Well I suppose I have a lot to explain, so here it goes.  For about three years my boyfriend, CJ (chauncey) has been in love with me and chasing me, however I didn't have the same feelings for him so I've done nothing but reject him.  I've loved him as a friend, but nothing more and we tried just being friends, but it normally didn't work out too well. . .Well I can't really tell you what changed, but maybe 3 months ago he and I started hanging out again and I fell in love with him.  I realized how much I actually mean to him and it melted my heart so I decided to give him another shot and here we are.  I couldn't be more happy or more in love with him and we just moved into our own apartment yesterday :)))  People pick on me because of how hard I've tried to find someone for the last year and a half and everything has ended in a trainwreck and then as soon as I try something different. . .it works.  He is completely different than the normal type of guy I go for. . .but I honestly wouldn't change a thing.  I am so happy.  He makes me feel so beautiful, special, and safe. . .I knew that he would from the day he told me he had feelings for me, but I just didn't have the same feelings at the time. . .I'm so glad that I do now and that everything seems to be working out.  Yesterday we moved into our new apartment in Schenectady, its a cute little one bedroom where I can keep Jack and its much closer to CJ's work.  I'll keep you updated, I just hope I don't have to write another post titled "Single. . .again" :P Wish me luck!!!