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Grateful Dead-Touch of Grey

Must be getting early
Clocks are running late
Paint by Number morning sky
Looks so phony

Dawn is breaking everywhere
Light a candle, curse the glare
Draw the curtains, I don't care
'Cause it's all right

I will get by
I will get by
I will get by
I will survive

I see you've got your fist out
Say your piece and get out
Yes I got the gist of it
But it's all right

Sorry that you feel that way
The only thing there is to say
Every silver lining's got a
Touch of grey

I will get by
I will get by
I will get by
I will survive
It's a lesson to me
The Ables and the Bakers and the C's
The ABC's we all must face
To try to keep a little grace

It's a lesson to me
The Deltas and the East and the Freeze
The ABC's we all think of
To try to win a little love

I know the rent is in arrears
The dog has not been fed in years
It's even worse than it appears
But it's all right

Cow is giving kerosene
Kid can't read at seventeen
The words he knows are all obscene
But it's all right

I will get by
I will get by
I will get by
I will survive

The shoe is on the hand it fits
There's really nothing much to it
Whistle through your teeth and spit
'Cause it's all right
Oh well, a touch of grey
Kind of suits you anyway
That was all I had to say
And it's all right

I will get by
I will get by
I will get by
I will survive

We will get by
We will get by
We will get by
We will survive

College (some high roman numeral, I have no idea where we are anymore :P)

So today was ACTUALLY a really good day.  Dispite the fact that I've been sick the last few days, today was good.  I was tempted to just stay in bed and not go to classes today, but I pushed myself and in my first class we got to watch Into the Woods, which is one of my favorites.  The weather was really nice, so that felt good as well.  I went to dinner with Rob and Andrew, and although the food kinda sucked, I enjoyed the company as always.  Then Josh came over to get notes for the CLASS HE SKIPPED! and I ended up reading his tarot cards and his horoscope and harassing him for about 2 hours lol, and that was probably the most fun I've had sober since I've been here.  That put me in the gypsy mood so I texted Audrey to see if I could read her tarot cards and she made delicious cake.  Cake always puts a smile on peoples faces, and before I knew it, I was really feeling better. Maybe things are looking up?

Back Up Plans

First of all, I would just like to say as an update to a prior post titled "Philosophy" I got a 100 on that short little response!! lol
I've decided if the whole college thing doesn't work out, I should probably have a back up plan. . .So I actually made three back up plans incase the first two back up plans don't work :P
Backup Plan A:  Find a wealthy bachelor and marry him.  That way, I don't have to go to college, nor to I have to work and for the next few years and I can be a baby maker and forever be an amazing housewife.  What ever woman decided that she wanted to be equal to men and work. . .ya she should be kicked in her womanly part. 
Backup Plan B:  In the event that I don't find a wealthy bachelor to marry I will get dreads in my hair and become a gypsy.  I will hitch hike my way all over the United States reading tarot cards, palms, and telling people their horoscope. 
Backup Plan C:  If the first two plans don't work, then I'm going to take Gabby down with me and we're both going to ditch college and run away and become Groupies for some band (and no, not Justin Bieber).

So, what do you think??  At least I have a plan for myself and goals :D

College. . .again

All my life I have been planning to go to college.  My life has been built around my education and me persuing my career. . .now that I'm here. . .everything feels sooo wrong.  What if I made the wrong decisions that lead me down the wrong path?  What if where I am now. . .just seriously isn't where I'm meant to be?  What if everything I'm doing is wrong?  I never thought I would ask those questions, not about college. . .but now that I'm here I can't help it.  What if college just isn't for me?  I ask that question and then immediately this little voice pops in my head and tells me that if college isn't just for me then what is? because in this country college is the only way of making anything of yourself.  You can't get a decent job without a college degree unless you are good with computers (which I'm not) or join the military.  What am I doing. . .or a better question, what am I supposed to be doing? 

Mini Rant for The Day

Ok, I was trying to creatively explain my thoughts and feelings right now and it wasn't coming out right so I'm just going to be blunt.  I'm retarded sometimes and (I'm going to blame my frontal lobe right now) and because my frontal lobe isn't fully developed and I can't foresee the future outcome of my decisions I sometimes make bad decisions that, at first seem like its all going to be good, but then end very badly.  As a result of this I'm embarrassed and let down. . .but I guess its okay that I still can't really feel anything and I have this Great Wall of China wrapped around my heart.  So thats my mini rant.  The End.  Peace and Love.

Changing It Up

I don't know if you've noticed, but I've actually been working all day long on getting a new template for my blog.  I've changed it probably about 15 times today and I've finally (maybe) settled on this one.  I figured that since its just passed the 1 year anniversary of my blog and I haven't changed the template since I made it. . .it was time for a change.  I like this template because its very. . .me.  Everything I stand for involves peace and love so I thought this was appropriate.  I hope you like it, if not. . .oh well, I can't please everyone.  Enjoy :D

Enough Said :D

Here's a little song i wrote,

you might want to sing it note for note,

don't worry, be happy

in every life we have some trouble,

when you worry you make it double

don't worry, be happy

dont worry be happy now

dont worry be happy

dont worry be happy

dont worry be happy

dont worry be happy

aint got no place to lay your head,

somebody came and took your bed,

don't worry, be happy

the landlord say your rent is late,

he may have to litagate,

dont worry (small laugh) be happy,

look at me im happy,

don't worry, be happy

i give you my phone number,

when your worried, call me,

i make you happy

don't worry, be happy

aint got no cash, aint got no style,

aint got no gal to make you smile

but don't worry, be happy

cos when you worry, your face will frown,

and that will bring everybody down,

so don't worry, be happy

don't worry, be happy now...

don't worry, be happy

don't worry, be happy

don't worry, be happy

don't worry, be happy

now there this song i wrote

i hope you you learned it note for note

like good little children

dont worry be happy

listen to what i say

in your life expect some trouble

when you worry you make it double

dont worry be happy

be happy now

dont worry, be happy

dont worry, be happy

dont worry, be happy

dont worry, be happy

dont worry

dont worry be happy

don't worry, don't worry, don't do it,

be happy,put a smile on your face,

don't bring everybody down like this

don't worry, it will soon pass whatever it is,

don't worry, be happy,

i'm not worried

~Song done originally by Bobby Mcferrin.  Bob Marley performed the song as well after the death of Bobby Mcferrin, but I love Bob Marley soo <3~

Philosophy

So I just got back from my philosophy class.  Today we had to write a "brief description of the worlds of being and becoming."  I thought my response was interesting because during the entire class I was trying so hard to wrap my head around these concepts and I just wasn't getting them.  Then, with 15 minutes left in the class, my professor gives us this assignment to do before we leave.  At first I was nervous because I couldn't grasp these ideas and now I had to describe them.  So I started writing. . .and it was weird because as I started writing I started to understand it and I was able to write a decent, coherent response.  I feel like the more I wrote about it. . .the more I understood it, but that baffles me because I didn't know what I was doing when I started.  I wrote that we live and exist with everything around is in the world of becoming because if knowledge is perception and our peception is always changing as we change then we, and everything around is, is always changing and always becoming.  I went on to say the world of being is somewhat unattainable any where outside of our minds because we perceive things as being what they are, but in reality they are always becoming.  My paper was a little better scripted than my description here, but if you have any knowledge of philosophy this probably (hopefully) makes sense lol.  But yeah. . .just thought I would share that weird experience with y'all.  Have a good one.

Cancer

Somebody told me today that they have cancer.  I sat there for a second. . .not knowing what to say.  What do you say to someone that tells you they have cancer?  He told me that he has stage 2A lung cancer.  The next thing he said was "oh well."  That shocked me and I found my words.  I asked him if he realized that his life affected everyone around him.  Thats when he told me he didn't have any friends or family.  He said the only people around him were those that used him and he let them because thats all he had.  I could relate to that sentence.  His attitude was apathedic. . .he didn't care that he had cancer, he didn't care that death was a posibility. . .he didn't care because he had nothing to live for.  What do you say to someone that has cancer and nothing to live for?  I hate being in these situations where people need help and there is NOTHING I can do.  I am trying my damnest to save the world. . .but sometimes I feel so helpless.  I want to take his cancer away and make him all better, I want to make him smile and feel loved, I want to make everyones life. . .everything they've dreamed of. . .but I can't.  If I could take away everyones pain, suffering, disease. . .everything I would.  I would give my life for another person even if I had no idea who they were, but in situations like this. . .all I can do is sit here and talk to him.  I can visit him and give him a hug.  Thats it.  I can't take it away.  I can't make it better.  I can't give him something to live for, or anything.  I can't do anything.