Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Dedicated: To the Best Mom Ever

About 2 weeks ago my Grandma Martha passed away.  She has been suffering for years with COPD and it finally got the best of her.  My grandma lived upstairs from us for half of my life and helped raise me, she and I were very close and I have a lot of wonderful memories with her.  It was hard to lose her, but at the same time, I am glad she is no longer suffering.  She really wasn't living anymore because of the disease.  She could barely eat without being out of breath.  I know she was very depressed and she was ready to go, even if we weren't.  I love you grandma, rest in peace.  I know if there is a heaven, she is there :)  My grandma that passed, is my Mom's mom and my mom has been having a hard time with this. . .who wouldn't?  I know for the last few years mom has been making an extra effort to be there and to make memories and just spend time with grandma. . .she knew their time together was getting shorter.  I've always believed this, and I still do now more than ever. . .My mom HAS to be Super Woman lol.  I don't know how she did it, but my mom has ALWAYS been on top of everything.  She has always taken care of everything and everyone, put herself second, and never expected anything in return.  She has worked multiple jobs to provide for us, always made sure we were safe, clothed, bathed, and polite. My mom and I may not always see eye to eye, but she has always been there for me and put me and my siblings first before anything else.  I've always known that, but after grandma passed away and my dad and I went up to the nursing home to see mom and say our goodbyes to grandma, my mom was hurting.  She had just lost her mom.  I don't know what I would do if I was in the same position.  But my mom was sitting there, crying, holding grandmas hand saying her goodbyes. . .until she saw me crying.  Mom then let go of grandmas hand to come console me.  Dammit, she deserves a metal.  My mom isn't perfect, but I couldn't have asked for a better Mom. . .in my eyes, she's the best there is.  I love you mom, and I can't thank you enough for just being you. 

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