Moving

I moved yesterday. . .to an hour away from where I've lived for the last 10 years.  I've been looking forward to moving and getting out of Canajoharie for quite a while, and all of a sudden (and I mean, all of a sudden :P ) my new boyfriend and I move an hour away to Schenectady.  I am very excited and happy to be living with CJ, but the other day. . .but when I was up in the attic looking for my mom's extra set of pots an pans. . .It hit me.  I'm moving out.  I'm no longer living at home. . .I'm growing up.  When did that happen?  When did I grow up?  I guess the thought crossed my mind: Am I ready?  I found some things in the attic. . .my knick knacks that I had in my room in Amsterdam that I hadn't seen since I moved to Canajoharie (porcelain bears and dolls), my teddy bears, things from my childhood, etc.  Idk. . .it just kinda hit me.  I didn't cry.  I didn't have a panic attack.  I just kinda stood there. . .thinking. . .feeling.  I got over it quickly and haven't really felt that way since.  But it does surprise me that I'm. . .all grown up :) Well :p sorta :p.  I loved moving, I was very excited about it and I can't wait to really start decorating and having things :)  I hope to find a new job by next weekend so I can start helping to pay for things because we really do need so much. . .but its fun.  Every minute is an adventure :)

New Beginnings :)

Mood: Happy :) 

Weather: Bipolar :P 

Well I suppose I have a lot to explain, so here it goes.  For about three years my boyfriend, CJ (chauncey) has been in love with me and chasing me, however I didn't have the same feelings for him so I've done nothing but reject him.  I've loved him as a friend, but nothing more and we tried just being friends, but it normally didn't work out too well. . .Well I can't really tell you what changed, but maybe 3 months ago he and I started hanging out again and I fell in love with him.  I realized how much I actually mean to him and it melted my heart so I decided to give him another shot and here we are.  I couldn't be more happy or more in love with him and we just moved into our own apartment yesterday :)))  People pick on me because of how hard I've tried to find someone for the last year and a half and everything has ended in a trainwreck and then as soon as I try something different. . .it works.  He is completely different than the normal type of guy I go for. . .but I honestly wouldn't change a thing.  I am so happy.  He makes me feel so beautiful, special, and safe. . .I knew that he would from the day he told me he had feelings for me, but I just didn't have the same feelings at the time. . .I'm so glad that I do now and that everything seems to be working out.  Yesterday we moved into our new apartment in Schenectady, its a cute little one bedroom where I can keep Jack and its much closer to CJ's work.  I'll keep you updated, I just hope I don't have to write another post titled "Single. . .again" :P Wish me luck!!!

Y'all were thinking it. . .I'm just saying :P

New Tattoo :))

I recently got a new tattoo on my foot.  The butterfly is a symbol of hope and the two shamrocks are obviously a symbol of luck :P Not to mention I'm very Irish.  I do not recommend tattoos on the foot, they hurt!!! But I was a trooper, just ask my bf who sat through it with me :)

All Part of Growing Up

So as I grow up I change my mind about who I see myself being in the future, who I want to be.  I suppose I am in the process of making that decision now.  Do I want to be the fun, hippie, that lives on the edge?  Or am I ready to grow up and settle down and be. . .a grown up?  I think I'm leaning towards the grown up part of that.  Its not an easy decision to make. . .it means a lot will have to change, but I'm starting to take steps.  For one I took my nose ring out, my lip is going soon and possibly my tongue as well.  I met a really great guy and things could be happening there :) When I went down to visit family in georgia this summer I thought a lot about growing up and how it happens. . .but one thing I can't seem to figure out. . .is when exactly we go from being the child to being the adult.  Like now I'm the one asking "hows school?" "do you like it?" "what do you want to be when you grow up?" when I remember not so long ago I was the one being asked that questiong by what I thought of as adults. . .it just feels strange for me.  I guess I'm ready?

The Adventures of Jocie: Skinny Dipping

Plenty of my friends and myself have gone skinny dipping at my house.  My pool is fenced in and so day or night we would go skinny dipping or lay out and catch some sun. . .well guys, I just so happened to be doing such a thing the other day while my boyfriend was at the bank (I thought I'd surprise him when he got back ;) just saying) and I happened to look up. . .that is when I realized that if you are on the upstairs of just about any house on my street you can see into my decked in pool area. . .Whoops.  :P So I feel like this mistake will be made again, but I just thought I would let you know and forewarn you.  Sorry guys. . .sorry neighbours? :P

I've Been Naughty. . .

Mood: Cautious

Weather: Cloudy, but warm (got sunburned earlier today :P)

So I really don't have a good excuse for why I haven't written in so long.  I could say I have been busy, which is true (the last two weeks I've spent without access to a computer in georgia, prior to that I spent most of  my time with my new boyfriend *blush*, friends, and family.  I've had some stuff going on lately that I've been dealing with and I've sort of been avoiding the computer.  I feel that a lot of unnecessary drama comes from the use of it. . .but a lot has happened and I am going to update you immediately!!!!!!!  But I do appologize for being so careless and not taking the time to update.  I also appologize to anyone that doesn't read this post before any of the updates. . .because this is already old news :P Anyways, enjoy :)

My Baby Sister

With each day that passes I can't believe what a beautiful young woman my baby sister is turning into.  At twelve years old she amazes me with her drive, artistic and musical talent, beauty, and intelligence.  I admire her in many ways and I know she doesn't know that.  For the last few months she has been training to run her first 5k (Girls on the Run).  I went to Cooperstown with her to watch her and I am so so so proud of her.  I think that was an awesome thing that she did and I think next year she and I are going to do it together.  She inspires me and though she may consider me her role model. . .I think she's mine. 

Jackariah Demitrius Oeser

Mood: Frustrated and sick of people

Weather: Hot, Sunny, B-E-A-UTIFUL!! :)

So I know I haven't posted in quite some time, but there is a reason.  I've kinda been dealing with some stuff and a few things happened that I don't think I'm going to blog about.  So I decided to get a dog to try to cheer myself up and give me a friend that can't stab me in the back and hurt me like the majority of my real friends and family.  He is a 1 year old, pedigree, English Shepherd.  He is fixed, with all of his shots, so he is a $600 dog, and I got him for free.  His family had several other dogs and cats and they got rid of his brother because both dogs got along with all the other animals and people in the house, but not each other.  So they gave his brother away and when I called they decided to give Jack away too.  They had named him Lord Floyd. . .and I didn't love the name lol so I changed it to Jackariah Demitrius, or Jack for short :P He is my little boy and he loves his Mama.  He follows me where ever I go and cries when he can't see me.  He is very shy around other people and it takes him a while to warm up to them, he actually favors men over women and he doesn't particularly like blonde females for some reaons.  But he loves me and he is the biggest chicken I have ever seen, and he would never hurt a fly.  He just takes his time getting to know people, but he fell right in love with me and he's perfect.  I love him to death.  This is my little boy. 

My Dream :)

Mood: So Happy :)
Weather: Warm, sunny, beautiful :)

Get the idea?? lol