This is a blog about my life, experiences, thoughts, and events. I also include creative writing, reviews, songs, pictures and all that fun stuff. Enjoy :D
Yesterday in my anatomy and physiology lab we had to disect sheep brains :) They are really squishy and it was a lot of fun, just thought I'd share some pictures with you. The full brains are 12 years old and they smelled AWFUL!!!! but the half brains were new and they were more fun and squishy. . .just sayin.
Hey there stranger, how you bin'
Feels like i'm standing on the outside looking in
at the mess we left behind
And it's a long way to fall
I gave you everything I had
I gave it all
And then my heart was on the line
I can't hate you
any longer
I know i'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let it go.
Say hello to goodbye, cuse its gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And i'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cuse, that was there and only then.
Say hello to goodbye
Say hello..
And this is how it has to be
Cuse' its a deadly combination, you and me
You know its undeniable
Even though we tried it all
We brought the worst out in each other
I recall
We can't act it anymore
What doesn't kill you
It makes you stronger
And though i'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let you go
Say hello to good-bye
Its gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And i'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cuse, that was there and only then.
Say hello to goodbye
Say hello..
And even though the tears will dry
I can't completely disconnect
Couldn't make the compromise
Didn't have a safety net
Say hello to goodbye
heeey ya ya
Say hello, goodbye
Say hello to good-bye
Its gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And i'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cuse, that was there and only then.
Say hello, to goodbye
Say hello, to goodbye
Say hello, hello
to goodbye.
I have said this before, but not in a formal post. The songs that I post all are either dedicated to someone, or have a deeper meaning to me. Generally when they are dedicated to someone I will say so in the title or put 'dedicated' as one of the labels, though I usually don't say who it is dedicated to. I also usually provide a youtube video of the song as well as lyrics because I know people don't just want to go through and read lyrics, but I post them because I feel that the words are very important. Just wanted to let you know lol. Enjoy :)
your dark hair draped across my pillow
says i finally got it right
and as i watch you dreaming, twisted in the sheets
i can't stop thinkin bout last nite
we'll i've waited so long, so long so long,
for someone like you
and as this morning breaks through the window pane
it reveals the truth
baby your my sunshine first light
find your way to places that only know lies
failed tries and brusied skies
with hardly time to hold on or be strong now i'm strong
cos like the dawn you push it all away
your finger tips a kiss to this tired face
it's like i'm young again
well i feel beautiful
but most of all vulnerable since you broke in
baby your my sunshine first light
find your way to places that only know lies
failed tries and brusied skies
with hardly time to hold on or be strong now i'm strong
cos like the dawn you push it all away
i tell ya your my sunshine
everybody needs a little sunshine
so won't you take me take me take me
anywhere and everywhere you go
all the warmth you bring to this cold heart
with the slightest touch is enough to know
baby your my sunshine
everybody needs a little sunshine
yeah your my sunshine
cos like the dawn you push it all away
I want to be completely honest about something. First I was completely honest with myself. . .now I want to share it. Once upon a time, I had a boyfriend. We were young and dumb, but I thought I knew it all. I thought because I had more experience than him that I knew what I was doing, and it was my job to teach him. I thought I understood relationships inside and out. I thought I knew what it meant to be a a "good" girlfriend and/or boyfriend. I was wrong. I was very wrong. Looking back I was a terrible girlfriend to him, and he was an amazing boyfriend. At the time, I didn't see it. I didn't realize how special and rare he was. I also didn't realize how shitty of a girlfriend I was being and took advantage of him. You never realize what you have until its gone, and its too late. No one is perfect, but that is no justification. I didn't open my eyes until it was too late. . .and then when we broke up I hurt him really bad. I don't want to go into detail because that is something quite personal, but I did something to him to intentionally hurt him. To this day I don't know why, and I feel so guilty, but I can't take it back. I broke his heart in ways I can't even understand, and I was malicious about it. I'm not that type of person now, and I wasn't then either. I don't know why, or what came over me at the time, but all I can say is I regret it very much and I am very sorry. Not only did I hurt someone that I love but I lost my bestfriend. He remained my friend for a while even after I did what I did, but then one day he decided he was going to hate me for the rest of his life. No apology will every fix what I did, and there is no way for me to show it. . .he won't let me and I can't really say that I blame him. He will never see this blog, but its here. I'm not posting it as another attempt at an apology, I'm posting it to say I didn't open my eyes. I thought I knew it all. . .when I didn't. I was an ass hole, a shitty girlfriend, I was selfish, and I lost probably the best person I ever had in my life. . .and I don't even know why I acted and did the things I did. Pretty stupid huh? Again, I'm not doing it as an apology, this is my advice to you. . .communicate with everyone you love, be honest with yourself and each other, live and love like each day is your last because you could lose them. Tomorrow they could be gone for good, and they'll never really know how you actually felt. They'll never know how sorry you really are. They'll never know how much of an ass you feel like. They'll never know the empty space in your heart and life that has grown now that they are gone and its all because you didn't do something as simple as show them how you really feel and make damn sure they know it. If I could turn back time I would have done a lot of things differently, but I can't. So please, take my advice and I'll try to do the same. To live and love like today is my last, you don't get second chances...
And if you are reading this by some crazy chance, I am so sorry. I was wrong in so many ways.
-All by Myself by Eric Carmen (I did not make this video)
“Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offense, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end.” - Corinthins something something, its some where in the bible :P
I'm hardly a religious person, I'm very very spiritual and I have a lot of beliefs, but I'm not religious. . .I just love this quote and it says a lot to me. Hope you like it too :)
Well this is my new hobbie, there isn't much to say because I think you can pretty much see how I did everything from the pictures. I covered the cap area of the bottle with tape and then poked small holes in the bottom so the water could leak out into the bottom part of the bottle, this was actually my little sister's idea (she's so damn smart). I now have 12 sprouts and its only been a few days :) these babies are growing fast.
I got a dirty mind
I got filthy ways
I’m tryna Bath my Ape in your Milky Way
I’m a legend, I’m irreverent
I be reverand
I be so fa-a-ar up, we don’t give a f-f-f-f-ck
Welcome to the danger zone
Step into the fantasy
You are not invited to the otherside of sanity
They calling me an alien
A big headed astronaut
Maybe it’s because your boy Yeezy get ass a lot
You’re so hypnotizing
Could you be the devil
Could you be an angel
Your touch magnetizing
Feels like I am floating
Leaves my body glowing
They say be afraid
You’re not like the others
Futuristic lover
Different DNA
They don’t understand you
Your from a whole other world
A different dimension
You open my eyes
And I’m ready to go
Lead me into the light
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison
Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction
Boy, you’re an alien
Your touch so foreign
It’s supernatural
Extraterrestrial
Your so supersonic
Wanna feel your powers
Stun me with your lasers
Your kiss is cosmic
Every move is magic
Your from a whole other world
A different dimension
You open my eyes
And I’m ready to go
Lead me into the light
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison
Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction
Boy, you’re an alien
Your touch so foreign
It’s supernatural
Extraterrestrial
I know a bar out in Mars
Where they driving spaceships instead of cars
Cop a Prada spacesuit about the stars
Getting stupid ass straight out the jar
Pockets on Shrek, Rockets on deck
Tell me what’s next, alien sex
I’ma disrobe you, than I’mma probe you
See I abducted you, so I tell ya what to do
I tell ya what to do, what to do, what to do
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison
Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction
Boy, you’re an alien
Your touch so foreign
It’s supernatural
Extraterrestrial
Extraterrestrial
Extraterrestrial
Boy, you’re an alien
Your touch so foreign
It’s supernatural
Extraterrestrial
