Take My Hand

Take my hand my love
I want to take this walk with you
I want to take each step with you
If you fall, I will be there to help you back up
If we fall together, lets lay in the grass and laugh about it
If I fall, will you kiss my scrapes?
Take my hand my love
Look at the scenery
Look at the sky
Watch the day change from morning to night
Watch the seasons change from winter to fall
Take my hand my love
I want to take this walk with you

Happy Birthday Jessie

So today would have been Jessie's 20th birthday.  For those of you that haven't been reading my blog for very long, Jessie is my cousin and she passed away November 6, 2007 in a car accident.  We were very close and her death has had a HUGE impact on my life. . .I go to the cemetary twice a year: November 6th and January 4th.  This year. . .I almost forgot her birthday.  I remember thinking about it towards the end of december, but somehow it slipped my mind until last night.  I started bawling when I remembered because I hated myself for nearly forgetting.  I am petrified of forgetting her. . .I guess I still haven't let go and I'm not sure I ever will or if I even can.  Not a day goes by that I don't think about her and remember her. . .not a day goes by that it still doesn't hurt.  There are still days that I cry when I think of her and when it hurts so bad I have to drag myself out of bed in the morning.  I'm not sure its ever going to be REALLY okay. . .but I'm not even sure I would ever want it to be.  I don't want to forget her.  I don't want to lose her in a sense. . .I feel like if it started to really be okay, that would mean I was forgetting her and she was drifting into the back of my memory. . .I don't want that.  I want to remember her.  I still remember the sound of her voice and her smile and her laugh. . .oh Jessie, I miss you like hell and love you so much.  I wish you were still here with me.  Rest in Peace hun. 

Goal Reached!!

So my 5000-hits-by-Midnight goal was reached!!. . .as far as I know :P At midnight last night I wasn't exactly at my computer to check. . .no I was brining in the New Year the right way :) but when I checked this morning, I had well over 5000 hits so I will assume that I reached it haha!!  HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE AND THANKS TO EVERYONE THAT HELPED ME GET 5000 HITS, I REALLY APPRECIATE IT.

Happy New Year!!!

Lets make it a good one!!

New Years Resolutions

So believe it or not, it is nearly 2011. . .Where did 2010 go?  I still remember New Years last year. . .I had to say goodbye to my Fiance as he left, once again, for bootcamp.  My how things have changed.  I'm almost positive I made a New Years Resolution last year. . .but to be honest with you. . .I don't remember what it was and I probably didn't fulfill it :P  So this year, I've decided NOT to make a New Years Resolution that I won't remember at the beginning of 2012.  Instead, I'm just going to close my eyes, cross my fingers, and hope that 2011 is as memorable and interesting as 2010.  :)

My Heart Part III

My heart is fragile. . .like the wings of a butterfly.
My heart breaks. . .it shatters like glass.
The pieces scatter with each new break.
Pieces are missing.
But its okay. . .
My heart has been glued back together many times.
Missing pieces have been filled by the hearts of others.
My heart may be broken.
But it's beautiful like stained glass.
Handle with care.

Little Fockers

Hilarious. . .enough said :)

Merry Christmas

So I know not everyone celebrates Christmas. . .I'm not sure if all of my readers do or not.  I celebrate Christmas even though I am not a christian so I am wishing all of you that do in fact celebrate Christmas, a Merry one :P  And for those of you that don't, Happy Holidays. 

Classes-Spring Semester

So I scheduled my classes at FMCC the other day and this is what i'm taking:

Intro to Sociology on Tuesdays on Thursdays at 9:30 to 10:55 with Guiffre
Bar and Beverage Management on Mondays Wednesdays and Fridays at 1:00 to 1:55 with Henderson
English on Tuesdays and Thursdays at 2:00 to 3:25 with Vennette
General Psychology on Mondays Wednesdays and Fridays at 2:00-2:55 with Friedman
Anatomy and Physiology on Wednesdays from 6:00-8:55 and my lab is Thursdays from 6:00-8:55 with Barr

For You :) Owl City - Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you

And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight
When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here