This is Genevieve

So yes, we got a rat, but she's cute right??  We named her Genevieve, and we call her Jenny for short.  She loves pasta, crackers, and human.  Jack adores her too.  :) 

NEW MEMBER OF THE FAMILY!!!

NO, I AM NOT PREGNANT. 

THE NEW MEMBER IS NOT HUMAN. . .

JUST SAYIN'

My new little girl is very shy.  We just adopted her today and she is adjusting so I want to wait a few days before I terrorize her with photos, and I want to have photos when I tell you what she is and what her name is.  I am just so excited about her and love her so much already I had to post something :)  She is so sweet and adorable :))  Pictures coming soon <3 

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I can't look at it anymore.
And pretend to be okay.
It still hurts just the same.
I just want to make you go away.
The past still haunts me.
Like a blood stain on the carpet.
I can't get you out of my head.
I wish we never met.
If I close my eyes,
and pretend you're not there.
Maybe the pain will stop.
There's not much more I can bear.
I just want to forget the past.
And forget you as well.
I'm sick of hurting all the time.
Though I'm sure you couldn't tell.

It Was You

I remember smoking those black cigarettes
and hanging out at the football games.
Life was so simple, so boring.
And so Plain.
I always knew there was something more out there.
Something for me to do.
But if you had asked me then, I never would have guessed. . .
It was you.
So take this journey with me.
My hero, my darling, my other half.
Let's make this a story worth telling.
As you walk me down this bumpy path.
Walk with me, I ask you please.
Until we can walk no more.
I can't wait to share my life with you.
I am forever yours.

Angry Birds

I recently bought a smartphone and have been introduced to a whole new world of apps and such.  I just have one thing to say :

I'm hooked.  Sorry for such a short post, but I gotta get back to playing Angry Birds.  L8r. 

Dear CJ,

I love you with all of my heart!  It will probably take you weeks to see this, but when you do I know it will make you smile so I can wait :)  

You are the best thing that has ever happened to me, I am just sorry it took me so long to realize it.  We may be very different people, but I think we compliment each other just fine ;) 

I just want to put in writing, to always remind you, that: I care about you so much, I love our life and our home together, I look forward to our future, I envy and admire your work ethic, your patience, and your genuine sincerity.  

You may drive me absolutely crazy sometimes, but there is never a dull moment and every day brings something new to experience together :)  

Here's to the next 8 months. 

<3 :-* 

The Journey to Me: My Blog

I'm contemplating deleting this blog. . .no worries.  I plan to start a new blog, perhaps with a slightly different theme.  

Lately, I've been all about letting go of my past and recreating myself into who I want to be.  This hasn't really been entirely easy or fun.  Especially since its still pretty foggy in here.  But I've done a lot of changing: gotten rid of my piercings, moved to cities, changed jobs, deleted facebook, changed my number, etc.  I've had this blog for over two years now.  There is a lot of my in this blog. . .which makes me want to delete it and start over, but it also makes me want to keep it.  So another possibility is that I will "end" this blog, and start another one.  An end to one part of my life, and the start of another. :) Comments are appreciated :) 

Facebook and Such Part II

Well I did it, just like I said I would.  I got my new phone today, which I LOVE!!!!! I got a new number, and I changed the number on my old phone and gave it to CJ.  Then. . .I updated my status one last time *tear* and I deleted facebook.  Mark (Zuckerburg), darling. . .don't take it personal.  You know I still LOVE YOU. . .ahem.  Just sayin ;)  But I have to say it was hard to do.  I've had my facebook for 4 years now, its so sad to say that it has become a BIG part of my life.  How sad is that??  Well I can't say for sure that I will never go back.  But I'm going to try to go AS LONG AS I CAN without my beloved Facebook.  It makes me self conscious. . .it makes me worry and care what other people think.  When I shouldn't.  I don't want to see how happy or how sad everyone else is, most of the people I don't even talk to.  Two days ago I had 850 friends.  Earlier today, after deleting a couple hundred people that I don't actually talk to, I still had 281 people left.  That's a lot of people to keep track of and worry about.  I don't want to do it, and I don't want that many people knowing whats going on in my tornado of a life.  I want to worry about Cj, and Jack, and myself for a while.  I'll keep ya posted here.  

Valentine's Day

I got my Valentine's Day present early because after CJ bought it he just couldn't wait to give it to me lol <3  He had it sitting on the kitchen counter all wrapped up and as soon as I saw it I said, "You got me a bracelet?!?" He was astounded that I could tell what it was just by looking at the box haha.  But I opened it and its a beautiful white gold and diamond bracelet from Kay.  <3

Facebook and Such

Within the next few days I am going to be getting a new phone and changing my number.  I am also going to be deleting my facebook.  I have created a like page for my blog and I will continue with that, but I don't want a personal one anymore.  The people I frequently talk to and those I want to be able to get a hold of me will get my  new number so if you want to make sure you are one of those people I would suggest you make sure I have you number.  I will still have my email and use my messengers and what not. . .just no more facebook.  But feel free to like this blog on facebook.  I have a like button at the bottom of the page.