What I Learned In Nursing School Is. . .

 

Its not as bad as it looks, I swear.  :P We are learning about inserting catheters and we thought it would be better if we had an actual person instead of a penis sitting on a pillow :P I love how hands on nursing is lol.

College: Fall Semester 2011

So I started school again, and yes, this time as an official nursing major at FMCC :) I only have 2 real classes: Nursing science (5 hours of lecture, 3 hours of lab) and Anatomy and Physiology II (3 hours of lecture, 3 hours of lab).  I also have an online physical education class, but I don't start that until October.  Thus far I like my classes, don't love Wednesdays, but I like my professors or teachers or instructors or whatever the hell you want to call them.  Mrs. Rohrs for Nursing is very up beat and fun and I like her a lot and Ms. Macleod for A&P is also upbeat and bubbly and kinda quirky, but she scares me at the same time. . .I was spoiled for A&P 1 and she demands a lot more and we have a lot more work to do. . .Scares me.  But anyways, I'm hoping for a good, successful semester. . .As soon as I figure out what the hell I'm doing :)) 

Nursing Program

So. . .I am NOW accepted to the nursing program.  I was first rejected. . .which was heart breaking.  I had a nervous break down because it was such a let down and I hadn't a clue what I was going to do with my life (I believe there are previous posts about this).  A few weeks later  I received a letter saying I was being put on an "alternate list" and that anyone that had been accepted decided not to attend I would be accepted.  I didn't really expect to be accepted however because I figured lord only knows how many people are on this list and what not.  Well last friday I got my acceptance letter in the mail. . .At first I wasn't sure what I was going to do.  I was so let down when I was rejected I was, and still am, having a hard time getting excited about this.  But I thought about it and if nothing else its the most practical decision. . .so I accepted my acceptance :P  I'm not really excited, and no. . .I'm not really looking forward to it anymore.  I'm not totally sure why, I guess its because I was so let down.  I don't know.  But yes, I am going to FMCC for nursing starting this fall.  Wish me luck.

Sheep Brains :)

Yesterday in my anatomy and physiology lab we had to disect sheep brains :)  They are really squishy and it was a lot of fun, just thought I'd share some pictures with you.  The full brains are 12 years old and they smelled AWFUL!!!! but the half brains were new and they were more fun and squishy. . .just sayin.

College: FMCC Edition Part VI

Mood: Dangerously Depressed

Weather: Snowy. . .fml

Well I got the worst news I could possibly get the osther day. . .I wasn't accepted into the nursing program at FMCC.  I had really been planning on being accepted, everyone around me was like "how couldn't you get accepted."  Well. . .I wasn't.  I don't know why I wasn't, they didn't say on the rejection letter.  I have good grades, but I think it was because they can only admit a certain number of students and its more than likely first come first serve.  But I don't know that for sure.  So my world came crashing down because of a piece of paper.  All of my plans and goals were based off of my acceptance, that was step one. . .everything went out the window.  I could no longer see more than 2 inches in front of me, I had no idea what I was going to do.  I broke down.  People kept telling me "its not the end of the world, its going to be okay."  No one really understands. . .that was the end of my world.  My future, my plans, my everything disappeared in a split second and I was supposed to be okay.  It was the end of the world, that world is gone.  Almost all the schools in the area only accept people into the program in the fall, so no matter where I went I would be waiting another year just to see if I'm accepted or not. . .I don't want to waste that much time only to be rejected again.  Not to mention its almost impossible for me to go to another school.  I commute to FMCC because my mom works like up the road so she just brings me to and from school everyday, I don't have a vehicle right now to drive myself somewhere.  Not to mention, I can't handle living on a college campus again.  I hate living with thousands of kids my age in a small building where you can't get away.  Not happening again.  Not to mention I've already transferred once, I'd rather not do it again, not after only one semester anyways.  So pretty much my only option is to find something else to do, and start building up my future again from scratch.  So yes, it was the end of the world, I have to start a new one to be destroyed.  I'm so depressed and miserable about this.  I already feel so shitty about going to FMCC.  I mean, I am happier there, I like the people better, and I'm doing well. . .but I can't shake the feeling that I'm going to a community college. . .I never wanted to be in a community college, I wanted to go to an Ivy league school, a private school, or at the very least a state school. . .but I'm at a community college with a 28% graduation rate and a day care, where most students didn't even graduate high school but got their GED.  It just kinda makes me feel bad about myself.  I don't think poorly about the people that go there, I had just always seen better for myself.  Its not a bad thing to go there. . .it just was for me.  Now I feel even worse because I'm at said community college and I can't even get into a program there. . .I just feel so shitty.  I still don't know what I'm going to do.  I'm a mess.  I feel like I'm drowning and I can't get my head above water.  I'm struggling, and trying to stay afloat, and I'm screaming but no one will come to help me.  What do you do?  If I keep fighting eventually I'm going to become too exausted and the water is just going to take me under. . .and if I don't fight, the water is still going to take me.  Either way I lose.  I just want to give up.  I don't see much for my future anymore, like I said. . .I can only see about 2 inches in front of myself and I don't like being in the dark.  Idk. . .

UPDATE: Stressful Day

Mood: hard to explain

Weather: Beautiful today :) the snow is melting!!!

Well I just wanted to let everyone know that I did in fact get everything worked out.  I was able to drop my english class without a problem, and switch into the Sociology class that I had been attending the whole time.  I had to go see the dean and she signed my papers without any problems at all.  That is a big relief off of my chest :) Just thought I would give an update on how that all went down. 

Stressful Day

Mood: Content

Weather: Won't freakin' warm up yet

So today started out as a pleasant, normal day.  I went to college this afternoon, got an 85 of my bar and beverage management test, was the only person to participate in my psychology class, flirted with a certain someone ;) and went home to study until my Anatomy and Physiology test that I had tonight.  Well I was home for about an hour before my parents got home and brought the mail, I had two letters from FMCC.  The first one I opened informed me that I had gotten all the english credits done in high school and I was no longer required to take english, so I had to go see an advisor to, once again, drop the english class I was in.  I was quite happy about that because I don't especially like my english class and its really my only source of homework.  The only thing that upset me was that I had just finished writing my paper that was due thrusday for that class. . .what a waste lol.  Then I opened the other letter.  It was informing me that I was failing a class because of attendance, mind you I haven't missed a day of school yet this semester so I was very confused and concerned.  Well it turns out I've been attending the wrong class so far this semester.  Somehow on the first day when I had to check this bulletin board if any of my classrooms had changed I somehow got the class room wrong but ended up in the same class, at the same time, just with a different professor.  So I immediately drove to the college to try to get everything straightened out.  I was able to drop my english class no problem and they told me I should be able to just switch into the class I've been attending without a problem but the advisor had to get in contact with my professor and the dean so I'll find out more about that tomorrow.  So that relieved a lot of my stress but by the time that was all done I didn't really have any time to study for my test.  It was 90 questions of hell, half were easy and I know I got them right where the other half were quite hard and I'm unsure, I should also get my grade for that tomorrow as well as my sociology test I took last week.  What a day, at least its over and I can go back to flirting with that certain someone.  Peace and Love all. 

Rat Disection for Anatomy and Physiology

So I meant to post this like a week and a half ago, but I procrastinate :P Well about a week and a half ago I had to disect a rat for my anatomy and physiology class.  In high school I was never good with disection, but I decided I have to do it to get through these classes so I'm just going to have to suck it up.  My lab partner is this little asian lady, I believe she is from the Philippines or something, but I'm not sure.  She doesn't speak english very well but I really have to respect her for coming to this country, learning english the best she can, working and going to school to make a life for herself.  She is really a sweet lady.  Well we had our rat, I named him Max, and I was doing some of the initial cutting, then I asked her if she would like to do some.  Instead of using the scissors or the scalpel thing she just starts peeling the rat like an orange!! lol We both laughed about it as she continued to tear the rats skin off.  Surprisingly, disecting the rat wasn't really that hard.  Other people had really fat rats, and one group had a pregnant one with little babies inside, they were sooo cute!!! Anyways, thats my disecting story.

College: FMCC Edition Part V

Today was not such a good day.  First, I had to look into sending my AP scores to college, specifically my english because there was a possibility I was in the wrong one.  My mom and I rushed to get those sent today and come to find out I was in the wrong english. . .thats usually not a big deal, but the professor for the english I was already in was my favorite and I absolutely loved him.  I looked to see if there were any English II classes that were open that he taught, but they were all full with a waiting list :(  So I had to switch to a class with a female professor from Sweden or Switzerland or something. . .I have like 6 assignments already due next week :(  Then I go and try to order my books, which I still haven't done, and I found out that my loans still hadn't gone through so I still can't order them when I have homework (specifically english) and I can't do it because I don't have the books.  So I go to financial aid and it gets worse. . .instead of getting the almost 900 dollars I thought I was getting from TAP, I'm actually only getting 200 so I'm going to have to use a pretty big chunk of my loan for tuition as well as books. . .which is going to hinder my chances of buying a car. . .needless to say today really sucked. 

College: FMCC Edition Part IV

Overall I have to say that I am very pleased with my decision to transfer to FMCC...so far anyways.  One thing I've noticed that is different is the professors.  At FM none of my professors are doctors, and none of them seem very arrogant and talk to their students like they are better than them.  In all of my classes the professors told their stories of how they made it to where they are today to show that they can relate to many of us.  They all seem so much more down to earth and like normal people, that wasn't the case at Oneonta at all in my opinion.  At Oneonta almost all of my professors were doctors and almost all of them were very arrogant and cocky.  I also enjoy walking through the hallway and seeing people I went to high school with, its comforting to me.  Not only that, but one of my professors knows my family and used to work with my father.  So I'm definately getting more of a "homey" and comfortable feel at FMCC.  I am very happy to be back in school as well.  I'm in such a better mood and feeling so much better about myself now that I'm getting up every day, getting dressed and doing something.  I really haven't had to do that since early October.  I get a sense of pride from going to school full time and working part time and I just feel so much better in general.  I like all of my classes as well as my professors so far. . .So as I said, I'm pretty happy with my decision and I hope everything continues to go well :)

College: FMCC Edition Part III

Today I had my other 3 classes.  First I had Bar and Beverage Management.  The professor for this class is the only female professor that I have, but I really like her.  She is very bubbly and she seems very happy in her profession.  I'm excited for the class not only because its essentially bartending class, but because she seems like a very fun professor as well.  The next class I had was General Psychology and oh my goodness let me tell you about this professor.  First of all he was about 5 minutes late for the class.  He walks in and he is this short, slightly balding, hardcore hippie wearing a leather Harley Davidson like jacket, a beard, black jeans and circle shaped glasses.  He throws down his jacket and underneath he is wearing a black button up with the top few buttons undone exposing his chest hair.  Without saying much of anything he starts playing this youtube video:



His name is Marty Friedman. . .I don't know about you but when an older gentleman's name is Marty I immediately assume he is a hippie.  He seems pretty cool, but his voice is very monotone and I can see myself falling asleep in his class.  Then for my final class of the day, I had Anatomy and Physiology.  Its a 3 hour night class, luckily I have a very attractive professor who, as soon as I walked in the room said to me, "so what's your name pretty lady."  He looks and reminds me very much of Mr. Schoff <3 He is very interesting and kept my attention for the full 3 hour class.  Best part: The seats recline!! lol  Well, its been another good day at college :)

College: FMCC Edition

So I had my first class today: Intro to Sociology.  I have been very excited about starting school again and so far its been a good day.  I am currently sitting in the Library blogging :P  Well I have to say that FMCC is very different than Oneonta and Canajoharie as well.  My first class went well, but when I looked around at some of the people it was exactly what I expected to see at FM.  Maybe I'm wrong, but the majority of the students all resembled the students I went to high school with that skipped school every other day, had children in high school, and never did their homework.  I can't shake the feeling that FMCC is the college people go to because they're supposed to, not because they actually want to.  I'm trying to stay optimistic, and as I've said everything is going well so far, but I don't know.  It was also interesting because my friend Ashley's mom was also in my Sociology class and we sat next to each other.  I like her mom, but it was a very different experience going to school with my friend's mom haha.  So now I'm sitting in the Library and looking around. . .the Library is stuffed full of Asians.  I have never seen so many in my life.  I do enjoy the diversity because its something I never had in high school, but I find it interesting that they all gravitate to the library.  Thinking of Kelsey right now because she is the only Asian that I really know haha.  Well everything is going well, I'm going to go try to find my next class and go to lunch while I wait.  :)

Classes-Spring Semester

So I scheduled my classes at FMCC the other day and this is what i'm taking:

Intro to Sociology on Tuesdays on Thursdays at 9:30 to 10:55 with Guiffre
Bar and Beverage Management on Mondays Wednesdays and Fridays at 1:00 to 1:55 with Henderson
English on Tuesdays and Thursdays at 2:00 to 3:25 with Vennette
General Psychology on Mondays Wednesdays and Fridays at 2:00-2:55 with Friedman
Anatomy and Physiology on Wednesdays from 6:00-8:55 and my lab is Thursdays from 6:00-8:55 with Barr