Growing Up

Mood: Thoughtful

Weather: Cold, clear sky

So I realized today that my baby sister is going to be 13 in a few weeks.  She is 7 years younger than me and I remember the day she was born.  I woke up in the middle of the night and my parents were gone.  My grandma martha lived upstairs so I called her and she told me my mother was in labor.  We didn't know the gender of the baby.  The next day I went to the hospital to see my new baby sister.  I got to hold her.  I cried when she turned 1 because I didn't want her to grow up. . .now she is turning 13.  That makes me feel old.  Growing up sucks.  It makes me realize what they meant about wanting to grow up too fast, and we should enjoy our child hood.  Working all the time and having responsibilities sucks, I totally miss high school!  Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the money and the freedom, but I miss having nothing to worry about as far as bills and a job and what not.  *sigh* Em, will you please stay 13 forever?? Love you!!! P.S Don't do all the stupid things I did when I was your age that you're not old enough to know about yet! :P 

Me Me Me, and oh yeah, did I mention ME???

So I thought I'd spice it up with some color for a change :P Well any who, I would just like to say that I no longer have my nose and lip pierced.  I took them out a while ago and I'm not going to put them back.  I feel like I'm growing out of that phase and I didn't particularly love them.  They got in the way and they were more of a hassle than anything, I only kept them for as long as I did because I spent so much money on them :P Yeah, I suppose I'm weird like that.  So now I only have my tongue pierced and 7 piercings in my ears (3 in each lobe and 1 in my cartilage on the right side).  Its only 2 more years before I'm done with college and entering the workforce (hopefully!!) as a RN. . .I now have my own apartment with my boyfriend. . .Time to grow up and that's honestly what I want.  I'm evolving into the adult I've always hoped to be.  So cross your fingers, your toes, and pray to whatever you pray to that things work out for me because at this point I'll take all the help I can get :P <3

All Part of Growing Up

So as I grow up I change my mind about who I see myself being in the future, who I want to be.  I suppose I am in the process of making that decision now.  Do I want to be the fun, hippie, that lives on the edge?  Or am I ready to grow up and settle down and be. . .a grown up?  I think I'm leaning towards the grown up part of that.  Its not an easy decision to make. . .it means a lot will have to change, but I'm starting to take steps.  For one I took my nose ring out, my lip is going soon and possibly my tongue as well.  I met a really great guy and things could be happening there :) When I went down to visit family in georgia this summer I thought a lot about growing up and how it happens. . .but one thing I can't seem to figure out. . .is when exactly we go from being the child to being the adult.  Like now I'm the one asking "hows school?" "do you like it?" "what do you want to be when you grow up?" when I remember not so long ago I was the one being asked that questiong by what I thought of as adults. . .it just feels strange for me.  I guess I'm ready?