Jessie's 21st Birthday

I'm a little late posting about this, seeing as her birthday was on January 4th, but I didn't know what to say.  Cj, Cyndi, and I went to the cemetery, like I normally do, to celebrate her birthday.  We were only there a few minutes before another car pulled up behind us. . .and it was her mother.  I hadn't seen Lori since the funeral, and had only spoken to her maybe twice since.  It was awkward.  I was embarrassed.  There were so many things I wanted to say, but couldn't.  I didn't know what to say or do, so we just left.  I hugged her and said hello, but that was all I could really manage.  It was painful, though I'm not completely sure why.  Perhaps it just stirred up some old feelings.  I haven't posted about this yet because I still don't know what to say other than it was an awkward and painful experience that I wish I could go back and redo.
I can't believe Jessie would have been 21. . .in my memory she will always be 16.  I wish she was still here for us to celebrate our birthdays' together like we did when we were little.  I miss you Jess.  RIP. 1/4/91-11/06/07

Living With A Boy: Christmas Tree

Mood:  Content, nothing to complain about

Weather:  Chilly and cloudy

So the other day, Cyndi and I went to walmart.  While we were there I found this absolutely beautiful, all white, pre-lit tree for only $40. . .so of course we had to get it.  Then we got a bunch of ornaments. . .that were all purple, pink, and white :P we even got purple high heel shoe ornaments and a purple balarina.  We thought CJ was going to flip because he loves christmas and we just got a bunch of girly ornaments so I had him hide in the bedroom while we set it up.  Turns out he loves the tree, he was just happy that he doesn't have to worry about it. . .what a guy response :P So anyways, here's the tree:  

Living With A Boy: And a girl?

Mood: Great, but not feeling very well 

Weather: Not sure but it looks gloomy 

I just recently got back into contact with the girl I grew up with from the time I was 2.  Cyndi moved in next door to me when I lived in amsterdam and saw that I had a swing set at my house.  Well she just came right over and started playing on my swing set and I saw her out the window so I ran to tell my mommy.  My mom then took me outside to meet the strange girl on my swing set and we've been best friends ever since.  I couldn't remember her name after that so when I wanted her to come play I would just yell friend out my window. . .:P Well I don't know how much she wants me to post publicly but she recently got out of a bad situation and is now staying with CJ and me until she finds a job and gets her own place.  Its nice having a girl around for a change, especially one that I've known for so long.  Its nice catching up :) We don't have a spare bedroom for her so she is staying on our couch, luckily we have a lot of storage space in our apartment so finding room for her stuff really isn't a problem.