War

Mood: Thoughtful

Weather: Cold. . .It F**king snowed last night!!!

Okay think with me here:  I am a person, a human being, yes?  Are you?  I am a female, are you?  If not then you are probably a male, correct?  I have lived for 19 years, celebrated 19 birthdays.  I have a mother, a biological father, and a chosen (adopted) father.  I have an older step sister, a younger sister, and two younger brothers, though one of which I haven't seen since he was an infant (he is my biological fathers son).  I go to school.  I work.  I have a boyfriend.  I have friends.  I have hobbies.  I have emotions.  I have daily activities.  Sometimes I laugh.  Sometimes I cry.  Sometimes I fall in love.  I have pictures.  I have memories.  I have dreams.  I have values, and morals, and beliefs, and understandings, and ideals!  Do you?  We all may be different, and have different families, thoughts, feelings, reactions, ideals, morals, beliefs, etc.  But we all have families.  We all have a mother that gave birth to us, and a father that helped created us. . .even if they are no longer around or in our lives.  We have people we care about, and others that care about us.  We have memories.  We have dreams.  So what I will never understand is how one person could kill another.  I will never understand war.  How thousands of man can band together to go kill each other.  To kill another person.  Have you ever lost a person?  Do you know what it feels like to have someone ripped away from you?  I don't care who you are, those feelings are the same.  Think about if you lost your best friend?  Your brother?  Your sister?  Your wife?  Your boyfriend?  When we go to war and kill other people. . .who do you think we are taking away?  Someone's son.  Someone's friend.  Someone's lover.  Someone's parent.  Just like we are losing.  I don't know, I don't think I will ever understand the point. 

Osama Bin Ladin

Mood: Well. . .you know :P

Weather: Cold and rainy :(

(I would just like to say that the below statements are purely my opinion )

Alright so I was awake when they announced that Osama Bin Laden was killed.  I didn't need a second thought, I just knew it wasn't true.  I didn't feel excited, I felt scared and upset.  I, for some reason, cannot bring myself to believe that we have the full story, and I fear that there is a lot that is left out.  I have two theories.  And though these are what I think happened, I really and strongly hope that they aren't true.  First I would like to say that I don't really believe that the Taliban were responsible for 9/11.  I truely do believe it was our own government.  And they pointed their finger at Osama to put a face and a race on the crime.  I believe Osama agreed to take the blame, in exchange for total protection and perhaps other luxuries.  This is where it becomes two theories.  I believe he is either still alive, and we are keeping him safe.  We needed some approval to appease the people for a while and get ratings up for Obama.  This also justifies high gas prices and makes the war seem worth it.  OR Our government agreed to keep him safe and then betrayed and killed him when they decided they needed to shut the people up for a while.  Idk, these are just my own opinions. . .but no matter what, I don't see any good that can come from Osama's death. . .I just have a feeling that things are going to get really really really bad really soon.  Just a huntch.

R.I.P David Jones

I hate doing this.  I hate having to post this, but this is my only vent and he should be honored with a blog at the very least.  David was a friend of mine.  One of the friends I would stay up late talking to online and camming with.  He was in the army and in iraq and he passed away.  He wanted to take me to dinner when he got back to the states, over and over again I told him I don't date soldier boys.  Finally I told him I would let him take me out. . .RIP David <3