ME :D

These are just some recent pix of me taken at college :D Hope you like them.

Tattoos

Here are some of that tattoos I'm thinking about getting.  Let me know what you think :D

Peace and Love is everything I stand for

The Blue Lotus is a natural aphrodisiac, so mine wouldn't be exactly like this and it would be blue.

With the lily I want to put my kids names in the petals.

This is the chinese symbol for strength

The Butterfly is a symbol of Hope

I do want to get a few tattoos but ever one I want to get has a deeper meaning.  There is no tattoo I would just get for the hell of it, they all mean something to me.  I have one tattoo already that means a lot to me and I do want to get a few more. 

What Do I Want To Write About Today?

Do I want to write about how you kiss me?
No.
Do I want to write about holding hands?
No.
Do I want to write about the sweet things you say to me?
Nah.
Do I want to write about how much I hate being away from you?
Nope.
I want to write about the things that don't have words to describe.
I want to write about the butterflies you give me every time I talk to you.
And how I smile every time I see your face.
I want to write about how you take my breath away with the slightest touch.
I want to write about how happy you make me.
The words don't exist, but I can try.
Have you ever been in the back seat of a car and gone down a big hill and got that funny feeling in your tummy? 
Have you ever smiled during a movie when the girl finally realizes how much she really cares about that guy next door that has been in love with her since elementary school?
Have ever had the wind knocked out of you and it took you a minute to catch it?
Now imagine the happiest moment of your life, and how you felt right then and there.
Combine all of these things. . .thats what I want to write about.  Thats how you make me feel.

I Need You - Marc Anthony

From the day that i met you girl i knew that your love would be
Everything that i ever wanted in my life
From the moment you spoke my name i knew everything had changed
Because of you i felt my life would be complete

Oh baby i need you for the rest of my life
Girl i need you to make everything right
Girl i love you and i'll never deny that i need you

Nothing matters but you my love and only god above
Would be the one to know exactly how i feel
I could die in your arms right now knowing that you somehow
Would take my soul and keep it deep inside your heart

Oh baby i need you for the rest of my life
Girl i need you to make everything right
Girl i love you and i'll never deny that i need you
Girl your love to me feels just like magic
When you smile you have total control
You have power like nothing i felt before
I've let all of my feelings show
'cause i want you to know that i need you

I need you for the rest of my life
Girl i need you say that you'll be my wife
Oh i love you won't you marry me marry me?
i need you

Oh i need you for the rest of my life
Oh i need you won't you marry me marry me?
I really need baby i need you
Girl i really need i need you
Girl i really need i need you need you baby
Oh baby i need you
Girl i really need you need you
Babe oh baby won't you marry me?
Oh won't you marry me marry me? i love you
Oh i need you

~ I really love this song and if and when I ever get married I would love for this to be our song ;)

Do you?

My nail polish has chipped away.
My make up is smudged.
My hair is in disarray.
Do you still find me beautiful?

I cry dispite the emotion.
I laugh at nothing.
I forget things almost instantly.
Do you still think I'm cute?

My heart is made of glass.
My eyes give away every secret.
My life is for everyone except me.
Do you still love me?

Disappear

I want to disappear.
I want to vanish.
I just want to escape from the world for just a few minutes.
I just need a break.
I need a second to breathe.
Sometimes its too much.
Other times its not enough.
I need a break.
I need to break away.

UGH!!!

UGH I'M SUFFERING FROM WRITERS BLOCK AND IT SUCKS!!!! I'M TRYING TO WRITE A FREAKING POEM AND ITS NOT WORKING!!! SOME ONE PLEASE SEND ME SOME EXTRACT OF INSPIRATION IN A TINCTURE.  THANKS

My Major

So. . .because I'm an extremely indecisive person that will just never be satisfied, I'm thinking about changing my major.  As my readers already know, I'm not really a fan of this whole college thing. . .so going to college until I'm 30 to get my doctorate in psychology doesn't really make a lot of sense.  So I've been sitting here pondering about the things I want out of life. . .and I've come to this conclusion:  I want to help people.  I don't want to be a doctor.  I don't want to be in school for the rest of my life.  I think I'm going to change my major to nursing!  Yes. . .my back up plans still hold.  If the option of dropping out of college to get married and have kids arises, damn straight I'm taking it.  In the meantime, I think I'm going to switch my major.  Thoughts?  Comments?  Suggestions?  Curse words of encouragement? 

September 28th

So today is the one year anniversary of being adopted by my Dad and becoming and Oeser. Its a decision I made about 3 years ago and after a long process we made it happen 1 year ago.  I am so happy that we made this decision and I wouldn't change it.  My dad and his family have been my family for the majority of my life and my adoption was just a matter of making it official.  So Happy Anniversary Dad, I love you!!

Thursday

So, as a lot of you already know, I've been sick for like a week.  Thursday morning I woke up at like 2:30 a.m. and couldn't breathe.  I didn't have an inhaler or anything with me at college so I went downstairs to the RA on duty and told her that I've been sick and was having a really hard time breathing.  She started to panic a little bit but called the campus EMTs, I think its called OSES or something like that.  Any who, for some reason campus police had to come too and they got there first.  The EMTs put me on oxyget, took my vitals and got all of my information.  They said if I was having trouble breathing and felt as though I was going to pass out then I should go to the emergancy room.  So I was paraded out of my building by 2 police officers and 3 or 4 EMTs.  That was embarrassing.  Then an ambulance came and took me to the ER.  They gave me a breathing treatment in the ambulance and that helped my breathing a lot.  I was the only person in the emergancy room so there was no wait.  They took all my vitals again and took x-rays of my lungs.  They told me that I had bronchitis and laryngitis and they gave me an inhaler, and 2 perscriptions for cough medicine and an antibiotic.  I went home later that day and stayed there for the rest of the week.  I'm better now, I still feel pretty shitty, but at least I have my voice back and I can usually breathe.  So thats my exciting story for the week :P